Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Hit Me With Your Best Shot

You know how sometimes you just want to fucking curl up in a ball and cry until you the world stops turning?

I can't see too well right now so idk how well this post is going to turn out to be honest, but I'll do my best.

I was in the hospital for a few days after I woke up and couldn't walk again... but in a whole new way. It wasn't my normal "knees giving out, pain in my legs, swelling in my joints" bullshit. I had this intense pressure on the top of my head, I couldn't see straight, I had no balance at all, and kept losing my vision and also wasn't able to hold my head up too well.

I went to the ER at 10:30 in the morning on Sunday and they did 3 CT scans, 2 MRI scans and a spinal tap.

They found I have pseudotumor cerebri... and it's putting a lot of pressure on my brain.

I'm having trouble walking, talking, typing, seeing and just doing basic shit right now and it's really pissing me off. I just wanted to give you guys some kind of heads up as to where I've been.... again. Oh, yeah, and now I have to have four teeth pulled. Remember how I said my ultimate fear was teeth? Yeah, I'm not a happy camper right now. I'm doing what I always do best though, drowing my fears in my music. :)


  1. Sweetie, i feel horrible for you, not that that is helping but know you're in my thoughts...
    Sending lots of love and strength over the ocean

  2. Oh, lady... :( I'm so sorry! I'll stick a pin in my voodoo doll for you, and send some good, healing vibes your way. Take care of yourself!

  3. Awh my,my,my... lots of get well love comin' straight at ya'! *hugs* x

  4. Diana- Thank you so much, and yes, it does help. :)
    Kathy- Thank you lovie, it means so much to me. :)
    Spinal Lou- Thank you so much. *hug*